FIRST TENNIS POST

So I found out about this site after asking around the tenniswarehouse forum about blogging my tennis sessions and someone directed me to this site. Hopefully I can constantly write down whatever is bothering me on the court and get some perspective or insights on random strangers..lol (at least im not picking up hitchikers). About month ago, I had first usta match and for some reason I couldn't sleep for days as I always get nervous before matches that "count" and have very hard time focusing as well.. My mind wanders, freaks out and in panic mode. Contrary, I play so well in nice environment where nothing really is on the line other then for "pride" and the fact you know you can beat the player (like your buddy you know). I don't know how crazy I am but I pretty much drove to the facility hours before so i can calm my nerves and warm up... But i still couldn't relax and I feel that I probally have some undealt with anxiety disorder i should probally go see a doctor for (seriously!) Anyhow, truth comes out in challenges and I felt that my worse case scenario started happening during the match... My mind went blank, felt heart racing, body felt stiff, and started making unforced errors. To combat that, i started to breath but didn't help much and pushed the ball to stay alive... I usually take full cuts but for some reason I just couldn't as mental errors were forcing me back to do my usual swings... I ended up relaxing towards the end after feeling like i had the match under wraps but so many times in the past i would be up 5-1 5-2 etc... and opponent comes back that it seems its just a battle from start to finish... I feel sometimes like quitting because I have more real issues that are affecting me in tennis but something always keeps drawing me back to this game....I'm thinking its probally due to bordeom, fun factor, challenge, boredom or all of the above..... either way this is a magnificent sport but so challenging if you want to keep getting better and push yourself...